bought this top few weeks back from "Hurs" at Bugis..

and ytd was the first time i wore it, so cute with a 3/4 denim pants..

so these few weeks, really busy with attachment...working from 9-12am..

everyday OT, OT at home~

sometimes when the OIC asked me not to OT, i said its okay, because i do things very slow..

so in order to hand up things by deadline(i tried to), i will OT myself..

sometimes, i'm really scared what i did is not up to standard, and scared that they will find me too slow..

so i always tried to do things very fast, but ya...just cant~

my brain move slow, do things slow..

so i felt sad sometimes in the company too

like everyone is doing so fast, and i'm like so slow~ :(

i'm praying for these two months left to quickly go~

i dun like this pressure at all...

few days back, i met up with Madeleine (aunty lee) for dinner, and we had a really good talk..

not gossips at all, is more of how we have changed so much after attachment started, like how we realised what we dunno when we are busy studying..

and it brought us to tears...

the first day when i went to IPP, i went home crying, and my mum and dad said so many comforting words to me...and the second day during work, i called my mum..

and she asked me this.."做工可以吗？不会就要问~ 慢曼来“ and after that she asked "你在那里有没有人陪你吃饭?" and i wanted to cry so badly..

and after these, i understood why my mum likes to call home when she is working, because is the only way u can find comfort when u are so tired and stressed out..

i think the biggest lesson learnt during my attachment is not those crap, what learn hw to work in industry and all that...

but the biggest lesson is my family became my first priority, and the things that i used to cared so much, what guys, what lies, what relationship...all these suddenly seems crap to me..

why did i even neglect my family because of something that i thought was important to me..

i'm so glad i realised this now...

i will be a better daughter from now on...

and try not to be so rude anymore...